That is my one and only New Year's Resolution.
It seems as though everyone makes that resolution. Weight loss programs see a giant spike in membership with huge numbers of people sign up in January, responding to the promises made in the ads and price specials. I venture to say more than 1/2 (making up the statistic - could be more, could be less) are gone from local meetings, have stopped changing their eating habits, are back to their old ways long before their special membership runs out. I know that has been my MO over the years.
But, I'm not talking about that kind of weight - at least not initially. While I certainly have many, many pounds of love to shed (over 100!), before I can do anything about my body weight, I have to do something about all the other things weighing my life down.
Here are two examples (and these are not even the extreme ones).
One of many books shelves in my house. You might notice that there is also a "book floor" there. Every set of shelves has the floor as an extension. There are even segments of floor without bookshelves covered with books and magazines. This is clutter beyond clutter. I need to cull the books, saving my most precious and donating/recycling the rest.
The Yarn Corner in my room - the mere tip of the mountain of rubbermaid containers, boxes, bags and other storage vessels filled with yarn and patterns and notions and more which can be found around my home. Again, clutter beyond clutter deserving of a good sort.
Before I can wrap my head around taking care of my physical well being, I must take care of my surroundings. Changing my body needs me to begin from a place of peace rather than frantic clutter. I've been hiding behind the clutter and avoiding the process. I made myself a promise a while ago -- to drop the unnecessary, the unwanted, the unhealthy -- to conduct a radical purge and cleanse of my life.
I have been afraid. Perhaps I won't like, or won't be able to handle, the incredible changes that must take place. What if I don't like the me that is on the other side of the clutter, the other side of 100 lbs? What if I'm a fraud? What if?
What if I Drop the Weight in 2008 and Find 2009 to be just Divine?
By May 13, 2009:
I want my home to be peaceful, neat, tidy, simple.
I want my body to be healthy.
I want my spirit to be alive, active and open.
With God's help and my determination (and a few swift kicks from my sister!), I will meet this goal!
LET'S DOOOOOOOO IIIIIIIIIIIIT!!!!!!!!!